I never really thought my sister and I were that close. Whenever we crossed paths, sparks would fly, and we had never truly sat down for a deep conversation. But for some reason, whenever I read the "Family Deep Dive" section in SOUL, she was the first person who came to mind. I realized I hadn't ever really talked to her properly or tried to understand her. So, I took this opportunity to ask her what was on her mind.
Please introduce yourself.
God bless you! I’m Park Seo-a, the eldest daughter of the Park family!
What does family mean to you?
To me, my family is like “home”— a place of comfort that is always there to welcome me back. At the same time, I find myself wanting to avoid them for no particular reason, much like those days when you just don’t feel like going home. But in the end, they’re the ones I can’t help but always return to. Ha-ha.
Since we see each other every day, we’re bound to argue often, but isn’t family ultimately the people you miss and want to be with, no matter what?
Oh, I understand! Then from your perspective, what kind of person am I to you?
Hmm . . . someone who can be a little annoying at times, but whose absence I’d truly feel. Even when we bicker like we’ll never speak again, the moment you’re out of sight, I find myself wondering where you are.
When do you feel the happiest?
I feel happiest when I’m having breakfast with my family on a day off. On weekdays, everyone is so busy that we barely even have time to say good morning. But on weekends, when we’re all gathered around the table—with our faces still a bit puffy from sleep—simply eating and chatting together truly warms my heart.
Have I ever hurt your feelings?
Hang on a second. There are so many that it might take a while to pick just one. If I had to choose, it’s when we’ve had an argument and I try to speak to you first, but you don’t respond. That’s my way of reaching out make up, so when you ignore me, it does sting a little.
I’m sorry . . .
Is there anything you’d like to say to me before we finish?
I’d really appreciate it if you could ask before wearing my clothes. When I’ve picked out an outfit the night before, only to find out you’ve already worn it out, it puts me in a really tough spot in the morning.
I’m sorry for that, too!
Looking into my sister’s heart, I can’t help but feel sorry, realizing how often I’ve hurt her. I suppose it’s because she cares for me so deeply and holds such high hopes for me. I had fallen into the habit of shutting down and refusing to respond whenever her teasing upset me. But from now on, I want to work through our differences with conversation—even when I feel hurt. By doing so, I believe I’ll come to understand her heart a little better.
Since she is also my heavenly family, I will cherish and love her as myself, striving to build a relationship that is both warm and comfortable. Oh, and before I finish, I have a message for her:
Sis! We used to make up so quickly after an argument and go right back to having fun together. I’ll do my best so we can share more of those happy moments again. I want you to know I realize that everything you say is always for my own good. Thank you for everything!